Life without your other half...

Well, Alli asked how life without Ryan was going. Well, its hard and everyday is easier. I'm glad its only for two months. And I know that military people are away from their spouses way longer so I'm not complaining just explaining.
I think that there are hard things for me that make it easier for Ryan to be in Cali.
For example, my toothbrush looks lonely in the toothbrush holder now so that reminds me that he's gone.
I have to sleep in a bed that we usually share. It's big and lonely...
Ryan is making his own way, the lack of me isn't staring him in the face everytime he turns around.
However, I have family and friends around. I can keep busy and have lots of people to chat with and keep my mind off things.
Ryan has my sister's family around but the kids go to bed an hour after he gets home from work. So, he doesn't get a lot of interaction from people that he knows real well.
He also is married without a spouse so who is he supposed hang out with or make friends with? Married people makes it awkward becuase you can feel like a third wheel.
Single people want to date and hang out where they can hook up with someone. But you can't become real good friends in two months time.
So, if you are in Utah give me a call if you are doing anything I can join you for! And if you have sometime send Ryan and email or give him a call. He aching for people he knows that he can talk to.

May Weather

I thought April had crazy weather. Usually by march we are kind of calming down as far as random weather patterns, Right? Doesn't the 80-90 degree weather start this month and we all complain about our electric bills going up and start buying more ice cream? Where are my few days of sunshine? Why is it snowing outside? And if May isn't going to be normal weather, is June going to be the normal 90-100 degree weather and we are going to skip May weather all together?

Happy Birthday Mom!!

Well so after what seems like a VERY long time, Ryan and I used our extra money that he earns for volunteering for me to buy new phones on T-mobile that have....(pause for dramatic effect)....TEXTING!!! We are very excited as well some of you may know because we want to use our new toy so much. We joined a month early so we have two phone numbers right now and then we'll switch the phone numbers over in May. Let me just tell you that I know I'm behind in the times when my 50 + years father already uses texting and I don't.

Work

You know I was excited about not going into anything business like and that I'm pretty much set as far as being a full time mom (which is what I want). However, I find that to be a supportive wife that I end up going to things with Ryan for his job all the time. I want to go and learn things and see what possibilities there are for Ryan and thus where we might end up living and such. I'm finding that I'm having to learn etiquette rules and make polite small talk with professionals. I don't know if you know me but I'm not exactly professional. I'm goofy, and clumsy, and silly... I work with little kids which is exactly where I belong. I'm no good at being serious.

Stress

I am feeling more than my fair share of stress this week. I'm not sure why because while work is busy and a slightly out of control, it is still manageable and well there are just some things I can ignore til later. I wish stress were something you could divide up and hide for later. For example, I misplaced my digital camera that I have been using for work. Now when I thought about it (well and prayed about it because lets face it I lost my last digital camera and those do not come cheap so apparently I am just that skilled at losing that particular item) I remembered that I had it at work and didn't get it put back before I got locked out of the school. So, I put it some place special that I would be sure to remember when I went looking for it again. That's what I want to do with stress. Take it apart and put it somewhere "special" that I will completely forget about because I do. And then when I come across that worry not done then I can worry about it.
Not doable, but still I wish my memory weren't so great sometimes because when I get stressed out it seems to work my brain overtime!